Sounds to me like you're still sifting through dirt. Maybe run with the analogy next time. When you find a bug or a frog, rather than run away screaming like your sisters, or trying to throw it out like garbage, take closer look. How is this serving you, or how can it serve you better? How does it fit in this ecosystem that is you? I generally find the distasteful parts of myself are inextricably linked to the parts of me I value most. So the question becomes, how do I work around it, or accommodate the distasteful part to minimize the impact and maximize the value.